I Love You!  / Mom
Hello my sweet boy! 

I'm off to bigger and better things and you're with me every step of the way.  I carry you in my heart and think of you daily.  Many times I wonder what life would be like, I know the world would be such a better place with you in it.  You have touched many hearts.  Aww.. You are so precious to me!! 

Well, wish Mom luck!
xoxo
Hugs and Kisses
~ I Love you so much Tyson! ~
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Barbie / Jen Vivarais (cousin)

hey Barbie,

again i am very sorry about Tyson, he was such an adorable baby boy, i know that he was only 3 months old when he passed but he sure was loved a lot, i know how much you love that baby, and he was very lucky to have you as a mom you are a great person and i love you to death. i know its a tribute to Tyson but to me its a Tribute to Tyson and as well as a Tribute to you Barbie for being so strong, amazing friend mother and cousin, you were always there for me and i appreciate it!!

TYSON- sweetheart i miss you very much and its a shame that you can not be here with us, mommy 
loves you very much and we all miss you, please watch over us all our little angel in heaven!

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Miss you!  / Amanda Vivarais (cousin)
Tyson is my cousin. I didnt get a chance to know him as well as I would like to have, but from the memories and the stories Barbie ( mother of Tyson) carries with her at all times, it's a well known fact that you were a very loved and cherrished child. I miss you Tyson, I'll see you in my later life!!!!! 

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Happy Easter Tyson~  / Sue~ Mom To Ashley Trapp

Easter Morn

Easter morn with lilies fair

Fills the church with perfumes rare,

As their clouds of incense rise,

Sweetest offerings to the skies.

Stately lilies pure and white

Flooding darkness with their light,

Bloom and sorrow drifts away,

On this holy hallow'd day.

Easter Lilies bending low

in the golden afterglow,

Bear a message from the sod

To the heavenly towers of God

By Louise Lewin Matthews

God Bless Your Family & Friends,
Sue, Ashley’s Mom

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Thinking of your dad....  / Michelle

My Dad is a Survivor

My dad is a survivor too...
which is no surprise to me.
He's always been like a lighthouse
that helps you cross a stormy sea.

But, I walk with my dad each day
to lift him when he's down.
I wipe the tears he hides from others.
He cries when no one's around.


I watch him sit up late at night,
with my picture in his hand.
He cries as he tries to grieve alone,
and wishes he could understand.


My dad is like a tower of strength.
He's the greatest of them all~!
But there's times when he needs to cry...
Please be there when he falls.


Hold his hand or pat his shoulder...
and tell him it's okay.
Be his strength when he's sad,
Help him mourn in his own way.


Now, as I watch over my precious dad
from the Heaven's up above...
I'm so proud that he's a survivor...
And, I can still feel his love~!

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Thinking of your mom....  / Michelle

My Mom Is A Survivor
My Mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it said.
But I hear her crying at night when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach that never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mom, who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others...a smile of disguise.
But through Heaven's door I see tears flowing from her eyes.
My mom tries to cope with death to keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows it is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mom...through Heaven's open door.
I try to tell her that angels protect me forever more.
But I know that doesn't help her or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...And show her that you care.
For no matter what she says...no matter what she feels.
My surviving mom has a broken heart that time won't ever heal~!

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Miss You  / Mommy

Hi Tyson!  I have been talking to old friends lately and most of them have kids now.  I see their pictures and it's sad.  Everyone I know gets to watch their kids grow up *the way it should be* and here I sit back and wonder what my child would be like.  What would my son look like?  Crazy.  It's definately like a nightmare that I'm living out.  Sitting here wondering Is this real?  How can it be?  I mean you would think I'd be used of it by now, (that it's reality) and yet I'm still messed up about it.  Well I guess some things will never change because I don't think I could ever get used to not having you with me.  It's just wrong.  Parents are supposed to die first.  Well I know you don't understand any of this, but Mommy felt like being real with you, and just rambling on.  Thanks for listening!  Love You More Than You Know!  Love Always and Forever, Mommy

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Missing him so...  / Daddy

Dear God,
You sent a child to me
To fill my life with joy,
And only You knew which was best --
A little girl or boy.
Somehow I took for granted, Lord,
That we would have a lifetime,
And I made so many future plans
For that precious child of mine.
Enchanted by that Miracle,
Caught up in each new day,
I guess I didn't hear You, Lord,
When You said, "This one can't stay."
I trust You, Lord. Thy will; not mine,
Yet I can't understand
This sudden loss -- the emptiness --
Caused by another's hand.
I know my child's an angel now
But my heart is aching so.
I'm sorry I wasn't ready, Lord,
To let my baby go.
There wasn't time for one last hug;
There was no final kiss.
Oh God, it's all those special smiles
That I already miss.
So Lord, could you do just one thing
For me especially?
Please hold my angel close to You
And say goodbye for me. Amen

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Can't stop thinking about you!  / Barb (Mommy)

Hi Honey!  Still thinking of you, of course, and wanted to write to you some more.  I just miss you so much !  I have so many mixed emotions going on.  There's so much I want to say but nothing comes out.  I think a thousand things at a time but when I try to express any of it, it's seems it's all a blur.  I know this is hard to understand but I just want to ramble on to you!  You always were a great listener I have my memories of your entire life, whenever I want to see you move, I have to close my eyes and think really hard.  It's harder as times goes by but I can still see you.  My sweet little baby!  You were so smart.  You and I had a bond that no one could break.  At the young age you were, you'd smile from across the room when you'd see me, without me even speaking a word.  It is one of the most greatest experiences I've ever had.  I remember your Daddy and I went shopping one day and your Grandmother (Granny Ward) was babysitting you.  When we came to pick you up you two were upstairs taking a little nap.  She carried you down the stairs and I was so happy to see you!  When she was handing you over to me and you were so excited and smiley (I knew you were just as happy to see me!) I was so proud and so happy.  That moment is imprinted in my memory! It was May 10th 2000.  Later on that night when Daddy went to work we went to visit Gramma (my Mom) Who knew it was the last time you'd see your Grammas? You know I can't believe that you died.  I can't believe that it was your time.  Why you?  After all this time, I actually have stopped asking why, however as I sit here writing to you, the question comes out naturally.  I know I won't get the answer, but the question will never go away.  Seems unreal how there are people suffering all over the world with horrible pain, yet innocent babies are taken every day.  Unreal.  Tyson, I love you and I miss you every single day.  I keep your memory alive as well as I can.  I hope there is a window in Heaven that allows you to watch over us.  I often think you are right there with us, very often in fact!!  If I'm right then you know what I'm talking about   Oh Ya...It's cute Brett's been saying Tyson now for a while, the best he can, except now everytime he sees a picture of a baby he automatically says Tyson, and I always repeat, "baby? that's not Tyson Honey, that's a baby!"  (Sometimes he's right, because there's plenty pictures of you!)  You're missed by so many people.  Even by people who never met you and who aren't related!!!!  LOL   Well I'll write to you again soon enough!  Love you!!!  Big Hugs and Kisses!  Love Always & Forever, Mommy~

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Happy 7th Brithday Tyson!  / Gabrianna
Dear Tyson, I hope the balloons we sent  reached you. Love you Gaby xoxox

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Happy 7th Birthday Tyson!  / Barb Tessier (Mommy)

Dear Tyson, 
Well I can't believe that 7 years have already passed since I gave birth to you!  I remember it like it was yesterday!  We both endured a really hard labour but we were both there for each other.  After 31 long hours however, there you were!  My little baby boy~  It was the most incredible feeling to meet you face to face for the first time!  I've never been so proud.  Well now, it's your seventh birthday and I'm just so lost without you.  I always think about how life would be if you never died.  I know things would be totally different, but I'm talking about how you would look today, and what your voice sounds like, your favorite movies, your bestfriend, your favorite toys, and games... the list goes on and on and on!  I know those are things I'll never know, but I don't think I will ever stop wondering.  I hope you are playing with all the other angels in Heaven and I hope they do something special for you on your day.  I miss you so much.  One day we will reunite, and that gives me strength.  Well I'll try my best to sing you Happy Birthday again, but I can't promise that I'll be able to finish.  I Love You!  I Miss You!  I'll write to you soon.  Goodnight for now, and Happy Birthday again.     Love Always & Forever Mommy

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Hello Tyson  / Gabrianna Campeau

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In Loving Memory of a Dear Friend/another SIDS Mommy~  / Barb Tessier (Mommy)

A few months ago I met a great girl who was looking for comfort for her sister.  The great girl is Michelle and her sister is Debbie.  Debbie lost her son Tyrone May 4th 2006 at the tender age of 3 months to S.I.D.S.  Debbie's family was doing everything they could to support her during this tragedy, and Debbie tried so hard to remain strong through the pain but it was so overwhelming that she felt that she couldn't live if it meant living without her precious child.  I received the news today that Debbie has ended her life.  I was devastated.  I felt so helpless.  When your child dies a big part of you dies with them.  I feel so much sorrow for Debbie and Michelle's Mom, Janice.  Who not only lost her grandson but her daughter.  Her sister Michelle, who not only lost her nephew, but her bestfriend.  Her father who not only lost his grandson, but his Baby Girl.  Tyrone's Daddy, who has lost his family.  For the whole family, I'm incredibly sorry for your losses!  My words cannot express what I am feeling right now.  I have much love for your family and I wish I could give you back what you've lost.  One thing I can tell you is that Debbie knows that you all love her very much.  There's nothing you did wrong!  I know that you're thinking "if only I.... or I should've ..." but in all honesty, she just wanted to be with Tyrone.  She loves all of you more than you know!    Please know that if I can do anything for you I will.  I'm always here to talk to, always!  I will NEVER forget you Debbie!  I'm so sorry~  SIDS doesn't just take our babies, it takes our souls!  To a Great Mommy, Daughter, Sister, Aunt, and Friend, Goodbye Debbie, Rest Peacefully with Tyrone In Heaven!!
~ Love Always & Forever, Barb Tessier~

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In a perfect world...  / Barb Tessier (Mommy)

In a perfect world, we would still be together.  I sit here and listen to the song I chose for your site, and it's so fitting.  Every word is how I feel.  The pain is still as strong as it was the morning you woke up in Heaven.  My life will never be the same without you here.  Don't get me wrong, Honey, I am a happy person, and life is good but there is a piece of me that's been missing since May 12th 2000.  Life sure is full of surprises...only they aren't all good ones.  I keep your memory alive, and I show your pictures to Brett.  He says "Tyson" the best he can when he sees your picture.  It makes me happy and sad all at once.  I wish there were no such thing as SIDS and I could raise you.  I was so happy and proud when I had you, it still shocks me that you are gone.  I still get the panic feeling when I think of losing you.  I do find that coming here to your "special place" is somewhat like visiting you.  I sure wish I could visit you, and HOLD you.  What I wouldn't give to hold you and hug you and kiss you.  I think if I did get the opportunity that you'd be like "Mom!  Stop it already!" because I don't think I could stop hugging you, kissing you, all the while tears falling freely from my face...  Although sadly this isn't a perfect world and I can no longer physically give you anymore kisses or hugs.  In spirit, I send hundreds and thousands of them to you in Heaven.  I love you so much precious Tyson.  I miss you more than anyone can imagine.  I'll write to you again soon Sweetheart.  Love always and Forever,
~ Mommy ~

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I miss you so much  / Natasha Campeau (Family friend )

Tyson,
I think about you all the time and I miss you with all of my heart...I still don't think its fair that you are gone. I hope to be with you some day to hold you and play with you and give you lots of hugs and cuddles...you are always in my thoughts Tyson...I love you!!!

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a letter to tyson  / Colleen Villeneuve (friend of your mom's )
tyson,i never had a chance to meet you,but i know you are a lucky boy to have a mom like barb. she talks of you often.and this site is amazing.it makes me cry everytime i visit,but also shows me that they are alot of little angels out there. i know your little brother brett and your aunt,cousins and grandparents. their all great and love you very much. i bet if you were here you would be a great big brother. i just wanted to let you know you are thought of often and your mom is a terrific mom who misses you deeply. lots of love colleen alias turtle Close